Ring Around My Neck

2:05pm: Elizabeth's Epitaph
You can see it written on her face.
Painted in the colors of her loneliness,
That seem to fade behind her eyes.
All the happiness she always fakes,
In her brain the memories digress,
To a time before her heart died.
The last door in the hallway,
Between certain death and her broken past,
Is where she is left to decide.
Hook:
Like a story told once too many times
Or the one song you could never write
She is buried in the corners of my mind
To bring my senses to brand new heights

Chorus:
To whom it may concern
It may hurt for you to learn
That the tombstone won't mention her
Just the illusion that burns
All the screams you never heard

The stories that she wrote,
About the love and about the hurt,
That slowly dragged her down.
It had been years since yall spoke.
While we grew her thoughts turned worse,
Until the rainy day her body was found.

(Hook + Chorus)

Meanings are in people not in words.
But none of you cared to understand,
How she felt when you went away.
Forgetting everything about her,
And its too late to make amends.
Leaving her her dead in your wake.

12:52am: Jon and Jane
People turing their backs, looking out for number one
Arms raised high for more brutal attacks, and we consider this fun
Screaming and yelling we've lost our dreams, now life has become a hunt
Turning and twisting we rip at the seams, can you survive to see the sun?

Chorus:
What happened to our world? Society made us this way
When every boy and every girl, fight for another day
To get in our last word, we cause chaos and disarray
Was it the voices you heard, that finally convinced you to stay?

I can't seem to understand, how has it come to this?
It's gotten out of hand, instead of love all we share are fists
The flames that they fan, and all the bombs seem to hit
It's time to take a stand, resolution should be first on our list
(Chorus)
Now it has all grown quiet, the pain it sleeps again
No control in the silence, and maybe healing will begin
I can see your fear don't hide it, you know it's better than you
Can't we stop the violence, and begin to start a new
(Chorus)
And now can you see through the grey, leading you down that road
Slowly watching the edges frey, it has taken it's toll.
(Chorus)

8:09pm: A Dream That Cannot Be
Watch the sun rise, now it's become that much clearer
Looking for somewhere to hide from all th world's hate and misery
Turn back from the sunlight runaway from all your fears
Cause I can see it in your eyes , you're afraid of what you see
You can't hold on to a dream that cannot be

Chorus:
Now you've fallen out of pace, fallen far from grace
Just reach out grab my hand, I will not leave you behind
Cause it's you that brought me back
Saved me when times were bad
Before my heart could turn black
You were all I ever had

In a reality you cannot grasp, thinking you can last
Without any help you'll be lost, let me show you the way
Still running from the ghosts that haunt you, I can help you escape
Arms spread out waiting for you, in me you'll find home
I will hold on, until you are gone

(Chorus)

Soon you'll find yourself counting down the days
While I stand here and wait
Just let me in...
Just let me in...

(Chorus)

4:06pm: One More Drink
The moonlight reflecting off the water
Looking out across the world
Those were the nights that she remembers
His arms still wrapped around her
Fighting away the fears she held
In the back of her mind she says...STAY

Hook:
A cold november's day pushed through
The winds began to change
There was nothing that she could do
Soon here comes the rain

Chorus:
Now she lay staring up at the rain
Crying out to God
Why can't he cure her pain
Forget all of her wrongs
And take away her guilt...Today

He can see her in the mirror
Feel her in the shadows
But he can't escape the horror
Brought on by the photos
And in the back of his mind he says...STAY

Hook:
A cold november's day pushed through
The winds began to change
There was nothing that he could do
Soon here comes the rain

Chorus:
Now he lay staring up at the rain
Crying out to God
Why can't he cure his pain
Forget all of his wrongs
And take away his guilt...Today

Now she's gone away...
Now she's gone away...
She's in heaven and he's in hell
Now she's gone away... Today

3:59pm: Child
Frustration building another sleepless night begins
The world has frozen leaving his emotions
Spread across the bathroom floor
His heart broken and blood sprayed against the wall

A twist of fate now she's left of the spectrum
Her hands cut loose along with her feelings
And the numbers rise, Nothing's wrong

Quiet resting all by themselves
thoughts of others trace their eyes
God sat down, put them in hell
In the wind you hear them cry
Another innocent child dies

And why... can't we survive
And why... can't we survive
And why... go through life
Searching for a reason not to cry

3:50pm: Low Road
Feel the cold air in my lungs
Reaching out for the last star
Breathing's become harder
The last string has been strung
The guitar pressed hard against my chest
Filling the hole you left in my arms
Fingers bleeding out my emotions
For your love I think i'd starve
Every chord another tear on my cheek

Chorus:
Winter's morning in my head
It's another day wishing I was dead
Now it's the chorus and warmth has left
More fear left on the back shelf

Second verse now becoming full of hate
Never wanting to hear her voice again
Singing of the pain caused by you
They all end the exact same

(Chorus)

Finding myself rising above
Makes my eyes close and smile
It's the beginning a new love
Holding happiness inside my heart
Even though the road was rough

4:16pm: (Untitled)
Now that the light has passed
My life seems so much more uncontrolled
I look at my past
And i can tell it was my soul i sold
The tears solve nothing
Problems just find their way back
I see the unseen
Everything a little more abstract

(Hook)
The fears that trap me
Tell me that i am not alright
Now life's a dream
And i'll toss and turn all night

(Chorus)
This nightmare,It haunts me
This drama doesn't ever stop
The light closes, I see you
I now feel my heart drop
And soon you'll kill me
Sweet dreams were my final thoughts

Black of night it grows
My eyes roll back in my head
Soon true colors show
It is your word i truly dread
No one believes me
No emotion ever shown
Body lying at your feet
Affection's another word unkown

(Hook)
(Chorus)x2

5:01pm: (Untitled)
Out of sight, out of mind
You'll soon find yourself being left behind
And that your running out of time
Never wished to see your face again
Feel my body begin to bend and break
Now I find myself running away again

Chorus:
My heart, can't take anymore of this pressure
I start, to feel my eyes bleed
You're lost, finding your way back to me!

I feel your breath on the back of my neck
You claim that this is not a trick
I can't trust any of the words you say
Close my eyes, hit the ground, begin to pray

(Chorus x 2)

Please God, can you tell me...
What have I done to deserve this?

7:02am: Happy Birthday (aka Thanx Sis)
If you believe the words I speak
Want the happiness you seek
Soon the the blood begins to spill
And the dreams that start to fill
Your head with a new hope
You'll learn happiness is a hoax

Chemicals mix in my head
Telling me i'm not dead
Makes me feel like all you said
Was more than words, more of feeling
Like I love or i'm sad
But happiness is a hoax

Another birthday come and gone
Still we sing the same old songs
Not knowing death has come nearer
I love you the words i spoke
And happiness is a hoax

Now the blood begins to spill
And the dreams that start to fill
Your head with a new hope
Soon you'll learn happiness is a hoax

10:34pm: Another fortnight has been spent and my heart still belongs to thou. Many lives have passed my eyes and this knight still follows his lady. But does she understand the power she has over him? I rest at her feet, awaiting my orders. My quest has taken another turn.

With my heart true,
Hopeless Knight

6:23pm: The Fear
He feels the walls close in
And he feels it coming for him
He tries to run but they keep gaining
Now he fears it he can't sleep
The words he sees in her eyes
Can make the difference if he survives

Chorus:
He just needed her to say the words to help him escape
In her arms he would be safe
Safe from the fear, from the pain,
From all the things that drove him insane
She didn't see it coming

Father's drunk again, now she messed up again
She sat in her room asking what she'd done wrong
She can hear his screams,
she can feel it's breathe on her neck
And only his words can save her
Only his words would make her safe

She just needed him to say the words to help her escape
In his arms she would be safe
Safe from the fear, from the pain
From all the things that drove her insane
He didn't see it coming

Now they lay broken in two
It had come just as fast they were gone
They could of been saved (x2)
But the fear, it ate at them

5:42pm: Through the Eyes (1/06/05)
Try and see inside my eyes for once
See all my dreams, hopes, and fears
Maybe you'll see inside my heart by chance
Blood is the sky and rains down tears
Temporary insanity has consumed me
Tell me what you hear

Chorus
Through the eyes where the darkness grows
Through the eyes where the true self is known
Cry out loud try to find some help
Pride swallowed for maximum security
Body collapsed inside my shell
Through the eyes where you'll find me

Watch the sun set on my life
I can feel my blood run hot
See another drop hit the floor
I don't think it can be stopped
Nighttime is my time for realization
Look through the blue it's time to start

(Chorus)

It's time you break down the walls
Try to understand the life I lead
Lie twisted and blind, follow the leader
We'll never really learn the truth
Will I wake up from this nightmare

(Chorus)

12:55pm: Tis sweet words I wish to hear from my lady, but I feel she is hiding her pain from her follower. A knight will strive to defend his lady's hand from the most fierce of enemies. I continue to walk my path, where shadowsfolow close, pulling me from behind. Will the heart lead me true, or will it lead me to my death?

With my heart true,
Hopeless Knight

10:06pm: I walk the path less traveled, I move in the night to avoid facing them and their judgments.

With my heart true,
Hopeless Knight

5:40am: Skeleton Song (A Poem)
I feel the tears drip down my wrist
As I cry out to feel your grip
And now I sleep, Sleep evermore

Cold steel pressed on my face
Cause I can't stand this state
This state of mind
This state of pain inside my heart

Watching the sunset, it feels like my turn to die
My last breathe, another wasted sigh
Chest collapsing just to feel some warmth
Slowly tear apart my discontented heart

Bitter hatred seeps through my veins
Seeking answers i'm left without
Waiting for the moon's last cry
Waiting for the moon's answers
Waiting for the moon's last cry
I'll be alone when I die

More bitter attacks that ground my heart
Broken promises and questions that seem to have no end
Now I see myself, See the emptyness

4:32am: Mirror
Cross my heart out, slit my wrists
I should die now, give the knife a twist
Cause it doesn't matter what I say
You only believe in what you see
Now look, turn your back on me
Cause I could care less what you think

In your mind you're right
But it's us you've wronged
All your words blind her sight
But in darkness you're lost
You wander down that hall
Your demons haunt you

When you speak, condecending words
Then you destroy, our friendship again
All the lies you tell
You think they hurt me
You should burn in hell
In the mirror what do you see

Do you think you're better than me
In another's eyes, if you could see
Selfcentered words run from your mouth
In the black, you're soul it drowns
How do you live again?

12:08am: Knock Again Without (A poem)
You wake up in a cold sweat
Your eyes blinded by the light
You question yourself
"Am I wrong?", "Am I right?"
And now you see the skies, they turn on you
You feel the blade
Tears fill in your eyes
You taste the blood
Feel the thorns twist in your side
And now you see the skies, they turn on you
On the floor you wait
Thoughts of what you've done
In this world of hate
It will carry on without you
And now you see the skies they turn on you

12:00am: New Man (September 1, 2004)
(My minstrel discovered this piece from his past)

Life just seems to fade away
Self destruction ade us feel this way
Apocalypse could be today
Listening to what others say
Brings us to our knees to pray
For forgiveness and for self control
As the world takes it's toll

Chorus:
Today I felt my heart drop
When our love came to a stop
If you knew what you've done to me
Filling my life with hate and greed
Only I will survive
With or without you by my side

I sit alone, all by myself
Studying in my own hell
I think about our love, about our past
I think of our love that didn't last
See my heart, it's in your hands
The heart of a boy, but i'm a man

Chorus

Look inside myself to feel my soul
Look inside for control
Now I've grown without you
Feel what hell you put me through
Life reborn to start a new
A new man in front of you

6:46am: Remember
I lie awake at night, thinking of all your lessons that will not fade
Looking up at the stars, wondering why you couldn't stay
Every star a thought of you, shining bright
Knowing that you're not here, nothing seems right

Hook:
Now my heart grows warm inside from thoughts of you
With you gone I don't know what I should do

Chorus:
I will carry on, living my life like you want me to
Live each day, breathe in the light just like you
You'll be with me, guide me safely through
You meant more to me than you ever knew

I remember all the times we shared
Life will never be the same
But the loss of you is bittersweet
Later we will meet again

(Hook)
(Chorus)

Your spirit lives inside of me
Whatever I do you will see
And now I think about it
I will remember you

4:27pm: Look To You
In a time of despair I look to you
Shine down your light tell me what to do
I've gone and destoyed myself
Look away, put me on the shelf
Now I sit and wait for your call
Wondering when I will fall apart again

Chorus:
All the things I should have said
All the dreams that are dead
Every single one because of me
Confidence is what I seek
And once again we will meet
Hopefully I can be what you need

Turn around I've sinned again
So I pray, hope you forgive
I hit my knees and I begin
Apologize for the pain I hid
Please tell me what to do
I bow my head, look to you

(Chorus)

I go on living my life
Call out your name in the night
Can you help me through these times
Shine your light on me

(Chorus)

11:20am: Door
She feels the light of day break on her face
Her life has never been the same
Soon she's counting down the days
She only has herself to blame
Her thoughts spread across the paper
"Will they miss me?" "Will they care?"
The tears spread down her cheeks
She writes her note, she finally speaks
Her feeelings out in the clear
And now her end has come near
Now life doesn't have a purpose
And it seems we're running out of time
When you've fulfilled your life's service
You will soon be left behind
We're never aware of what we do
Will we end it? Start a new
Look at yourself, look inside you
Now she feels the blade
Blood fills inside her hands
And the light begins to fade
Let the end begin
Her body hits the floor
She's headed towards the door

10:43am: A Quest Incomplete
Mine eyes have seen battle, mine eyes have seen love, but both bring down the pain of a thousand swords. I have stared down the mouth of a giant, seen my love torn from my hands, and watched my heart burn down. Hate carries an axe coated in poison in which he gives mighty blows to the mind. Love carries a blazing hammer, used to crush dreams, hopes, and hearts of poor knights and maidens. They travel together taking turns tearing at the soul of hummanity. I have faced these monsters and felt their mighty blows. And my quest seems lost, and my swords falls to my feet as I cry out for my love.

With my heart true,
Hopeless Knight

6:33am: Shadows
Walk down the beaten path again
Wander off in your own world
Just to see how much we've sinned
Through the rain you see it burn
Taste the hate inside of you

Chorus:
Can you see it in the shadows
Outlined with the fears you take
Soon to see the pain that follows
When it's happiness that you fake
Keep it all buried down inside
Find a place that you can hide
But now your world, it's come undone

You feel the eyes, they turn on you
So you run to find a new
To find your life's true desire
Protect yourself from the fire
The fire that drives us all

(Chorus)

So now the shadows smother you
It burns your heart, it burns srtaight through
Your soul is blackened deep within
Now you give in to the sin
Where is your love?

(Chorus)

3:47am: Phone Call
As I wait by the phone hoping just to hear from you
I look back on days past thinking what should I do
All alone I am waiting but still I rest in silence
Thoughts of good times, thoughts of bad, why the silence?

Chorus:
Everyday I sit at home
Hoping just to hear my phone
But it never seems to ring
And now I scream
Scream in silence!

I sit and wait and I know that you're all gone
I start to cry, I start to bleed, I wish I knew what's going on
Am I forgotten, am I lost, how I miss winter's frost
Once again I sit in silence, Why the silence?

(Chorus)

So now i'm here by myself, I feel my heart craving in
And I want to hear another voice across that line
But all I hear is silence, Why the silence?

(Chorus) "Scream in silence" x3 + fade with "Die in Silence"

2:47am: If Only She Knew
She walks with a swing in her hips
She talks with those lips
Gives him such a thrill
His jokes make her laugh
But he doesn't know what she's after

Chorus:
He will do anything just to please her
But she doesn't know he cares
He watches her go through life
It's never seemed less fair
She loves him as a friend and it will never end
All he wants is a chance to start over again

Another day that they're together
And she brings up other boys
All he wants is just to kiss her
But what would happen after
So he sits and listens to her
But will he ever get the girl?

(Chorus)

On a dark day she comes crying
And he brings her in close
She tells him all her troubles
He gets lost in her voice
He wipes away all her tears
And life will be ok
The words I love you is all he wants to say

(Chorus)

All he wants is to tell her how he feels
((Needs to be finished and worked on ))